I am naturally contemplative and though I grew up in the Methodist church I struggled back then to find spiritual fulfillment in the church context. At the age of 20 I left and went on a spiritual exploration to rediscover the God that I had naturally known as an inner experience as a child, as opposed to the external God that seemed to be inherent in the church teaching I had received.
My exploration took me into different approaches to eastern and western spirituality and it was during this time I discovered a route to inner silence that brought me closest to that for which I was searching. After developing a regular pattern of silent meditation I began to reestablish the deep inner sense of the soul’s movement towards inner communion with God. I now understand that the mystic impulse had always been a part of my life. After a profound revelation of Christ some 15 years after leaving the church I felt drawn to return and, in time, the calling to ordained ministry.
As part of my theological and ministerial formation I began to explore the contemplative practice of the desert fathers and mothers, which would became the focus of the research for my Masters Degree. I also discovered that the founder of Methodism, John Wesley, had also been profoundly influenced by desert spirituality.
I have now come to love Methodism and the wonderful mystic, inclusive, heart oriented spirituality of its founder. Since becoming a Methodist minister I have been committed to holding a space for those who feel naturally called to contemplative practice in the church and indeed for those who have left the church because this has not been available. I reach out to those who describe themselves as spiritual but not religious and create opportunities for deeper reflection for those who are religious but not spiritual.
Heart and Soul is precisely this space! The group meets fortnightly but through this blog I hope to begin to broaden the reach of Heart and Soul for a wider group. If you are interested in finding out more please use the contact page to get in touch.